how to leave the love you forgot

subject yourself to the kind of ice water you burn out lies with
dress down to little and track traces
stare down love you can't quite taste
frozen in space
we are nothing now
i am alone
forever
so small
i just want out but nothing is working
i don't feel alive
dead end life where i look for no spark
take a dream kill it dead buried alive
i don't think the formula was ever right here
but now i live life so, so scared
what if i'm wrong
i can't trust this body these dreams this memory
so what if i die with that sunset inside me
i promise myself it's slow going
how many times can i rub my nose in this piss puddle before i blackout and wake up free